seek his face
Reading Psalm 27 this morning, I had one of those moments.  As if I were squinting, trying to see what lies before me…. and then clarity came. My emotional state, my behavior, and the truth came together and I realized something. I am so often my own worst enemy. King David wrote Psalm 27 as he cried out to God to be delivered from his enemies. As I read, I thought… no one poses a threat to me as much as I do right now. I am making such poor choices right now. How can I possibly succeed when I am eating poorly, staying up late, procrastinating instead of preparing for homeschool, etc… David writes that his deliverance, his safety comes o

bittersweet
Read this mind-pricking quote this morning by  Oswald Chambers. (My Utmost for His Highest): “Abraham did not choose the sacrifice. Always guard against self-chosen service for God, self-sacrifice may be a disease.” Wow. That is the basic problem of my life. I want to choose, darn it!!  I want things to be easy, to go smooth. However, God wants me to grow up and be more like His son Jesus.   He permits difficult situations in my life and calls me to do things that are beyond my abilities. I must learn to surrender to HIS choice, to HIS plans, to HIS ways. Abraham was asked to give that which was most precious to him. God was

the d word
My baby boy has slept through the night for several days now. I knew he could do it. When I went to women’s retreat a couple of weekends ago, the Lord showed me that my boy was capable of sleeping 8 or 9 hours straight. He did it at the hotel. Little stinker!! At home, he would get up every two, three, or maybe four hours in the night. I knew that God was giving me the go-ahead to be firm with my little buddy. So, when I got home from retreat, I stopped feeding him in the middle of the night. Boy, would he cry. It was hard for him to go back to sleep. However, I knew that a boy in the 100+ percentile for height and weight did not need a midnight and three a

sticky dough
I felt totally energized when I woke up this morning. Planned to get a shower, have a little time reading my bible and praying, and make scones for breakfast. Well, I couldn’t get out of the shower because the water was so warm… and suddenly time was slipping away. I began to hurry. I mixed the scone ingredients together and the dough was so darn sticky! I was in tears and so frustrated trying to get the dough portioned out on the stone for baking, now that the time had come to send my older daughter off with dad. How quickly my own good attitude fizzled out. That stupid dough was God’s way of reminding me that I won’t get anywhere

being still
“Be still and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10 “The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:14 “Jesus got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, ‘Quiet! Be still!’ Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.” Mark 4:39 “You may not feel see or feel the inner workings of His silent power, but rest assured it is always mightily at work. And it will work for you, if you will only quiet your spirit enough to be carried along by the current of its power.” –Hannah Whitall Smith Carry me, Lord.