A Positive!
Okay, so yesterday was a not so great day around here, but there was one big positive! I am only 2lbs away from my weight loss goal of 135lbs. My brain is also finally catching up with the changes, and I'm actually starting to feel thin! Here is the progression of photos from April to now.April 2009 184lbs

Failure
Do you ever fail at things?? I have many times in my life, but none hurt me the way this failure has. Can you guess what it is???My son, my Monkey. I have failed him. I have failed to protect him, failed to always keep him safe, failed to keep life from hurting him. I do realize I can't protect him all his life, but he's only 5 and a half years old. It is my job, and my duty to protect him now. And yes, I have failed.I have failed to protect him from his own family, he is hurting so much over all that has happened. And he will continue to hurt over this his whole life, because I couldn't keep his family together. I was given no cho

Slacking on my blogging lately!!!
I have been such a blog slacker lately! It just seems that life has kind of taken over, which in many ways is not a bad thing. The house is slowly getting organized, still lots going on though. Painting should be done in a few days, the doorway to Little Man's room is in, and I even have a door to my bedroom. There are still a number of updates that I would like to do, but they can wait a few weeks to a month. Right now I just want to fully settle in, and enjoy things for a while.For myself, I am doing really, really well. I haven't felt this good about myself in more years than I can remember. Don't ask why I did this, but I tried my wedding dress on last week.

Almost forgot to introduce Catch
In my earlier musings, I forgot to introduce the newest member of our family. She was picked up from our local humane society, a suggestion that Monkey made (I am very proud of him for this choice) when I said we could get ano

Flashing back.
They say that when you die, your life flashes before your eyes. I believe that impending divorce is a lot like that. I find myself 'flashing' back to past events several times a day. Sometimes it's from going someplace that He and I went together, or doing something We did together, and other times it doesn't seem to correlate at all. What surprises me the most, is how mundane some of those things were, nothing really momentous. I would have thought it would be the big things that would get to me. Then again, it is the daily, mundane things, that really form our lives. The great big momentous events, are just that, events. Some of course are more central to who we are, like the firs