Sights & Sounds

Shattered Soul

Don't forget to switch off the lights

Not far at all...
I have been reading over some of the blogs that have gone before and realise that I have not taken many steps forward at all.  I seem to be pretty much in the same spot that I was all those years ago.  Am I purposefully sabotaging my own journey?  Or is there something I am missing completely?    Having said the above, this is not meant to be introspective at all.  I am trying to live "in the moment" as it were for a while and to stop driving myself insane with thoughts of what if and why not.  Although I do not regret much in my life, those thoughts tend to send me into a deep despair, and really I am tired of feeling sorry for myself and for att

Terrible...
I feel rather terrible... I have not kept up to date with a friend as I should have.  I hope though that they know that they are always in my mind and heart.  I am blessed to have them as friends.

Simple things
It's a beautiful sunny day outside for the first time in days.  I am sitting at my desk looking out and wishing I was there!  And as I write this I am reminded that I am blessed to be able to sit at a desk and work.  That I have transport, and the means to get myself to places, that I have a home to go to, that I have my family (however, far they may be) and my adopted family (all my friends that are as close as family, far some of them may be too).  I forget too easily how blessed I truly am.  What brings this on?  A truism I was taught by my gran and then again by life and yet again today by a blog that I read.  The truism goes - 'be thankful for then you will exp

WTF?!?
Seems pretty apt for how I feel right now... WTF!?!  How in blue blazes (and no I have no idea where that phrase comes from) did I miss the signs?I was flummoxed (I love the image that word conjures) by just what I have missed in the last few weeks.  I am also at a complete and utter loss on how to deal with this situation.  Do I involve counsellors, the church, friends, family?  Do I try and handle it myself?  Am I doing more damage than good?   I can't give too much information at this time as it would just shock and hurt some friends who do read this blog.  But it is serious enough for me to wonder whether I have done the right thing overall.  Everything - who I am,

Meander
Ahhh the meander of the water on an inflatable tube... nothing is pressing other than to gaze at the blue blue sky and just exhale and relax.   Now I know that on this particular ride it is not as simple or as calm as it seems.  There are the odd rapid to negotiate along with the odd waterfall or shower to go through.  But the pace is slower and more relaxed.   The sky may change colour and become a gray tempestuous whirlwind of its own, but my little tube and me are safe cause on this ride there is the odd haven in which to stay and wait out the quick storm.     I have a storm looming on my horizon today already.   Tonight I go and see the teachers a