I Miss You....
Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell. ~Edna St Vincent Millay Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart. ~Kay Knudsen Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated. ~Lamartine All days are nights to see till I see thee,

How to put this.... hmmmm
True giving happens when you are overflowing from the inside, and cannot help but share. When there is so much love within you that it has to flow to others or you would burst open. There is no thinking involved, no willpower in such sharing. It just flows out. If you have to force yourself to be kind, to love, to feel compassion, you've missed the first step of filling in your own Self with these emotions. I've lately realized that I've been searching for outside validation of myself for at least the last 34 years :) I've also learned in the past few weeks that it doesn't do for me to look to someone else to fill that "hole" in my heart. Because even if I do find

To Quote a Friend...
I was noting a pattern today... the kind of "men" I attract (I use that term loosely because I'd say there aren't many real men in the list I've brought to myself lately) seem to decide that I'm disposable, decide to choose someone else... and she said: you choose men who are too damn stupid to hang onto what they have with you & go back to an unfulfilling but known relationship. Or rather these men choose you because you make them feel good about themselves. You appreciate their talents etc & then they do something stupid like get their ex knocked up so they go back to a bad but comfortable relationship because they are used to the routine. Ooo

I Will Rise....
If this song doesn't cause you to get excited for Christ when you hear it... you need to check your relationship... I will be singing this song this upcoming Tuesday night at my church & I have been asked to sing it with my sister in Christ when she gives her testimony at our hometown Celebrate Recovery in the next few months... I am so blessed to have her back in my life. Our God is SO big & so GOOD! There's a peace I've come to know Though my heart and flesh may fail There's an anchor for my soul I can say, "It is well" Jesus has overcome and the grave is overwhelmed The

This Change
This change is eating away at me like a disease. Everyone and everything around me is changing. But not for the better. It's a lost cause to fight for the past. To fight for the days of smiles and laughter would only be a waste of my time. The people I once called my "friends" just left me hanging. I should have known better than to rely on anyone but myself. Insignificance is a familiar feeling to me now. But the world isn't familiar. Everyone, even I, have lost appreciation for the littlest things. How pathetic. I'm tired of reality. I'm sick of feeling so small, so unimportant. Like I don't belong. Anyw