2 months on
It was just two short months ago that our baby girl died.  Though I cry less, the weeping is deeper and longer.  And though the days are no longer a haze, each day is a concerted effort to face the children and pregnant women at work, in shopping centres and public spaces.I want to be pregnant again, but I want my body to heal fully.  I want more children, but I am acutely aware that another child will not replace the one that I've lost.It is painful today, 2 months on...

What Makes A Mother?
My darling friend Claire sent me this great poem.  I love it, and yes I cried when I read it - good tears though.  I hope it blesses other mothers...What Makes A Mother?I thought of you, I closed my eyesand prayed to God today.I asked what makes a Motherand I know I heard him say,"A Mother has a baby.This we know is true."But God can you be a Motherwhen your baby's not with you?"Yes you can!" He repliedwith confidence in His voice,"I give many women babies,when they leave is not their choice.""Some I send for a lifetimeand

It's OK to cry
I have finished reading It's OK to cry. I found it so helpful in accepting my own emotions in dealing with the loss of Anna. I recommend it to anyone who is struggling with "infertility", "miscarriage" or loss of a baby.

One month
Sunday is one month since we met and lost Anna.  Though I feel quite emotional, I am choosing to spend this beautiful Spring weekend doing things in her memory.  I finished her quilt this week.  Today I started a quilted wall-hanging in the same fabrics to hang in our living room.  We ar