Dreams and insanity
I had a dream the other day, I had a black kitten in my car for Nick. I told him, but told him I wasn't going to show it to him. He was excited like a child begging me to show it to him. Then my dream changed to a spider had made a web, you know the ones where they make a stream of web, the ones you

Darkness within
Try as I might I often hurt people that I love. I'm a very real person more real than most think I should be. This is me, I have been through some very hard roads, looking forward it will not be much better. I struggle everyday to do the things I have to. One thing is I have completely withdrawn myself from the people I care about. I can't help it, I need to do it better that than say something out of anger. I barely have time to write, something I need to change. Writing is an escape for me I need to have time to do it. I wish you all a Happy Thanksgiving!

I''m still here
I have been extremely busy lately, I moved an exhausting adventure to say the least. We did it ourselves, with Nick's health it was almost too much. I'm the strong one, I trudged on to the finish. You never realize how many things you really have. Nick has studio space now, I can't believe how we ever had room to put all of Nick's things in the old place. Once we had everything at the new place it looked trashed. I put boxes away for three days all by myself, which made me very angry. Strange how nobody noticed. Do I really have to ask? Writing has been put on the back burner for some time now. Working 3rd shift has drained me. I'm getting use to it, still trying to fig

I have been writi...
I have been writing my book since Aug, I have decided to finish it today. Finish it isn't the word, I have major rewriting to do. The first chapter has to go for sure I have went into a different direction than intended. For the most part I like what I have written. Editing it is going to be a great undertaking, maybe it will bring about a even better story. There are parts I really like, but I'm ready to start something new. I have started four other stories in between. This being my first novel it ended up being a short novel, just over 70,000 words. As far as life goes I'm starting to work 3rd shift hopefully it will work out for me. I need a change I have worked one year

women deserve respect
I'm not trying to be a man basher at all I know there are quality men out there. Some show women absolutely no respect. Just because a woman decides to pose for sexy pictures doesn't give a man the right to show them no respect. The same time you look at those pictures or watch those movies doesn't give you the right to make derogatory remarks about them. Women didn't ask to be put into this position men put us into it. Of course some of us will take advantage of it and get work out of it. Even if they take their clothes off they still deserve respect. Small brained men that are getting off on the pictures they send grow up. How can you do business with them at the same time