what to give up
we only have 24 hours a day.8 hours or more has been given to work.another 8 or lesser has been given to sleep.we have another 8 hours (ideally) to ourselves.and this 8 hours we share with our friends, our family, our pets, hobbies or whatever it is.the 'really' me time, i guess is pretty much non-existent.i would give up a few things just for the extra 'me' time.i would give up on my hobbies. i would stop blogging. i would stop writing bout makeup or doing FOTDs or anything beauty related. i would stop shopping. cut down on meeting friends. cut down on seeing my family (not because i don't love them, it's t

yucks yucks yucks
when i look at her, she amazes me.when i look at her and look back at myself, i want to die.simply because.i am so.wtf.no wonder i never really gotten out of that deep big shit.yucks yucks yucks yucks yucks.

i am and will be, alone.
i happily did my xmas list.but now i feel i don't need to anymore.i feel a little left out.really i do.but then you don't care?neither you really care for me.that proves it.i am all the while.alone.while i thought you were a friend.

where's my med?
i need a huge dosage of peace, sleep and quality time all to myself.give them to me, pretty please?

random thoughts on a blue monday
there are days when you find yourself thinking whimsical nonsense, even when you are suppose to stay focus and work.it happens very frequently to me.at night before i sleep i think of work and some other weird little stuff.in my dreams, or maybe i wasn't dreaming but in fact my brain is still thinking about those odd pieces and stuff.it's so very exhausting you know.i don't know what's call inner peace anymore.i feel like i am being haunted by work. by life. by bills. by stress. by my blog.not this blog. the other blog.everything seems like it's a burden right now.i had longed for the